I never cry in front of people. It's just something I've never taken a liking to. Put me in a room by myself and put on a good song and I'm in tears for hours. Put me in a movie theater with 1 other person and show me the saddest movie... no tears will come.

  This really can complicate my life in so many ways and areas. I have a very sick and irreverent (sometimes mean) sense of humour that really dictates most of my being. So so many people really see me as a stoic, insensitive individual. Either that or just plain flat out self-obsessed.

       Now, this sentence will sounds self-obsessed BUT I feel as long as YOU know who you are and are fine with it, the external opinions melt away. 

   So yesterday was one of those days where EVERYTHING just made me cry. I wasn't depressed or upset about anything. It was just one of those days where your emotional floodgates are hemorrhaging  and anything can set you off because it just NEEDS to burst out of you. That's when I know I'm gonna write a new song soon. I'll probably sit myself down later tonight and see what comes out of me. 

  The rest of my life is going pretty okay. Looking for some part time work so I can make some spending money. MY income at my current job  is just enough to pay my bills and feed myself. Band practice today! I'm very excited about that. We've added quite a few songs to the setlist and I've hired a new drummer and bass player. I've got 2 months to get them perfect on about 40 songs and still manage to write some new material to sing. PLus the other singer and I really want to add MORE harmonies on everything! If you've seen us live you'll know how much harmony we already have!

   I'm off for now to shower and prepare for rehearsals... I have a band rehearsal here and then another rehearsal at work.

   Oh, I guess I've never quite explained what it is that I do.  I'm a faker. A conartist. An imposter of sorts. A 100 percent blasphemer. That right, This gay atheist hippie works as a church accompanist! I've done it for years and I like the people even though i despise the faith and the religion. Chistianity repulses me, but we'll save that doe another blog! :)

      LAYTUH for now!