okay.. This might offend some, but when was I afraid of going there? :)

So many american soldiers disgust me. I keep seeing videos of these morons in iraq exploiting iraqi children for their own entertainment and making their own "jackass" style movies to make like-minded morons throughout the world appreciate their small minds (and hopefully small cocks)

These jerks are representing our country and they have nothing else better to do than give small iraqi children chewing tobacco and watch them vomit! AND PUT IT ON TAPE! They make fun of their lack of comprehension of the english language. It's a shame that people who aren't fluent in english get ridiculed in our country. It's a bigger shame when they get ridiculed in their own!

To look at our military situation truthfully and honestly for a second is to admit that the military is not where the scholars go. Most of them are minorities who didn't have a future or white southerners who got the wrong girl knocked up way to early in life. It's a rarity to find someone who joined the military simply because they wanted to defend and represent their country with dignity. Mostly it's either the free ride to school or the fact that they're not smart enough to get a higher education in the first place.

Either way when I see these videos I feel grossly misrepresented as an american. Exploiting children in a downtrodden country IS terrorism. But, I guess there was never really an argument that we're that biggest terrorist around.

My hard drive died last night.. i've just lost 110 gigs of shit! 

 I am crushed.

I never cry in front of people. It's just something I've never taken a liking to. Put me in a room by myself and put on a good song and I'm in tears for hours. Put me in a movie theater with 1 other person and show me the saddest movie... no tears will come.

  This really can complicate my life in so many ways and areas. I have a very sick and irreverent (sometimes mean) sense of humour that really dictates most of my being. So so many people really see me as a stoic, insensitive individual. Either that or just plain flat out self-obsessed.

       Now, this sentence will sounds self-obsessed BUT I feel as long as YOU know who you are and are fine with it, the external opinions melt away. 

   So yesterday was one of those days where EVERYTHING just made me cry. I wasn't depressed or upset about anything. It was just one of those days where your emotional floodgates are hemorrhaging  and anything can set you off because it just NEEDS to burst out of you. That's when I know I'm gonna write a new song soon. I'll probably sit myself down later tonight and see what comes out of me. 

  The rest of my life is going pretty okay. Looking for some part time work so I can make some spending money. MY income at my current job  is just enough to pay my bills and feed myself. Band practice today! I'm very excited about that. We've added quite a few songs to the setlist and I've hired a new drummer and bass player. I've got 2 months to get them perfect on about 40 songs and still manage to write some new material to sing. PLus the other singer and I really want to add MORE harmonies on everything! If you've seen us live you'll know how much harmony we already have!

   I'm off for now to shower and prepare for rehearsals... I have a band rehearsal here and then another rehearsal at work.

   Oh, I guess I've never quite explained what it is that I do.  I'm a faker. A conartist. An imposter of sorts. A 100 percent blasphemer. That right, This gay atheist hippie works as a church accompanist! I've done it for years and I like the people even though i despise the faith and the religion. Chistianity repulses me, but we'll save that doe another blog! :)

      LAYTUH for now! 

Well, my head feels full again so I guess it's time to blurt out some more stuff for the shoutpost community.

   My roommate is a bit insane. And by a bit I mean I'm a bit worried about him.  He has these........ well, episodes.   Something trivial will happen and he'l slamming things around and yelling loudly at himself. He doesn't get violent with other people. But he certainly appears to have the ability to possibly hurt himself one day. He definitely should never live alone.

   I've been listening to some new albums this week and I'd like to recommend them for you folks today.  Andrew Bird's Armchair Apocrypha and Bjorks Latest album Volta. Both are completely different but also both unique and wonderful!

   Hmm..i guess i'll leave it at that for now...bit of an update and some album recommendations.

  take care!

   Oh, and take good care of my buddy RiotPoof who just joined the community. He has alot of promising Prose to submit to you folks. So be nice! :) MUAH